Mark the Diary of a Bitch.

Whispering Nostalgia

vainity — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 17:20:36 +0000

the weekdays are here so i’m preparing for the lack of sleep again. bad bad bad!
reminisced about the past, the people i encountered, the things i been through, the place i have been; life isn’t that bad eh? haha. how many regrets do each of us withhold, i fathom.

i guess each and every of us hold our own regrets. What is yours? Mine would be hurting the one that unconditionally loved and cared for my being . Although things have move on for nearly 3 years? Both of us have moved on, growing up and maturing into what we are today. Some days i admit i do deeply think, what would had happen if i wasn’t so wild in the past. would we still be together? maybe yes, maybe no; i don’t know. Hurting someone who embraced me that much is a huge sin i guess. Karma have caught up on me and since then, there was never a second “you” anymore.

like the old tales said, humans never cherish something till the day they’re gone. majority of the beings probably hasn’t got this in their head. we are always foolish enough to learn it the hard way. we often take kindness and goodness for granted, we will never learn to appreciate and be grateful. At a age of 21, im certain enough to said i went through a chunk of shits and witnessing and experiencing numerous reality cruelness than more people probably do at my age. The vicious experiences really make us grow, evolve spiritually and mentally.

Start cherishing people whom love and care for you! Appreciate the little things they had done for you!
you would never want a regret plaguing and following you around your entire life. trust me, it sucks.
got to run along,

good night world.
my heart is screaming.

2012, A year to RAMP and POP LO!

vainity — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 11:01:13 +0000

Words cannot describe what the beginning of the end of 2011 means to me. Around this time last year I was slogging my ass off at work, mentally wrapping up 2010 and hesitant about 2011.

Now as 2011 draws to an end, I’ve got all my answers. This year has certainly been a very smooth sailing good year but definitely come with its own sets of drawbacks as well. Then again what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

One of the best feelings in life is to be free from encumbrances, which I am now. With zero baggages, a vision that looks out to the horizon and my back facing what’s behind me, I cherish my memories but I definitely am not holding on to any.

I finally knew how to end the last chapter of my previous story I was penning. Here I am now armed with a new book, in a new year, a new me and I can feel the passion for life revived in me once again.

And one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned this year is; There’s NOTHING in this world that one can’t walk away from. When you actually do, you’ll realized you don’t miss it all that much.

And on a lighter note, I’m done with 4 months of my national service. ITS POP today! what more can i ask for? a sigh of relief it’s finally over yet anxious and anticipative where the next step will be? On the other hand, thanks to those that congratulated me! And i’m proud to said the friends i forged in BMT is definitely the best thing that happened over the past 4 months! Love you all!

Mix for Nuts

vainity — Thu, 26 May 2011 09:11:14 +0000

SMELL the LIBERATION!
HEY WORLD. its been ages, i know.
just got home from the much needed get-away! and along with that, i lost my baby iphone. ): Rest in peace, babe.
what else can i say, life has been treating me fairly well, sailing smoothly i would say. its been fun packed with activities and work.
Feeling ecstatic with just the mere though of my intern ending in about 1-2 months time! H.O.L.I.D.A.Y! just fucking looking forward to it. with that, i shall end here.
goodbye (:

Spill

vainity — Wed, 20 Apr 2011 15:02:00 +0000

that mere moment, i realized and felt that’s not the one i could connect and fall back on.
everything just sunk and remains on the line of uncertainty.

Daybreak

vainity — Fri, 08 Apr 2011 08:05:25 +0000

if you felt so uncertain, trust me i’m worse.

Lapse

vainity — Tue, 05 Apr 2011 12:56:48 +0000

Time flies so fast. With all the things that we need and we want to do, I would presume that all of us are stealing time from the present to look back at the past.

Awesome Times. Laugh Trip. Crying Moments.

Everything that happened, is according to our will. We are the author of our own life. As William Ernest Henley said:

“I am the master of my fate.”
“I am the captain of my soul.”

Where I am now, is where I want to be.

What I’m doing now, is what I want to do.

Who I’m with right now are the people that I wanna be with.

Let’s not find a scapegoat. We hold the pen to write our own biography.

It’s up to us what kind of memories, we may want to cherish as we look back.

Happy. Sad.

It’s all in our hands. Let’s not dwell on how you survived the storm. Hence, let’s all remember the moments while we are dancing in the rain.

Agree?

Solemn

vainity — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 16:50:53 +0000

million and million of thoughts to jot down.

they are wondering, i’m wondering,
did i create a mistake by giving myself another chance to believe you?
i feel so sorry and worthless for failing to establish that trust back on us, the uncertainty and insecurities surrounding every part of it is extremely unbearable.
maybe..

on a side note, thank you dan, big big thank you.

Red Riding Hood

vainity — Sun, 13 Mar 2011 16:33:37 +0000

hi world.
the sea has been calm for quite awhile. things paving steadily, relations riding up and down.
distanced with a few people, but well that’s life.

internship been tragically routine and it further exacerbate the situation when i’ve to work with people who are minor-brains. geez. 4 more damn months and it’ll be LIBERATION DAY!

on a side note, red riding hood is a extremely intriguing movie. catch it!

Dilemma 3.0

vainity — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 08:21:27 +0000

i hate getting myself caught in such position.

damn.

Lights

vainity — Wed, 09 Feb 2011 11:51:36 +0000

Expect nothing in return when you truly loves someone.

been a long long while since i do an update here.
life has been treating me very well; and it gets complicated once in a while.
getting caught in decision making, making choices, choosing people.
at least it’s never anymore about fighting.
on a side note, thank you to this certain person for always being there. hmmm

goodbye world